I can't believe how soon this fall came to an end! Calendar shows that the winter has come but as it's not snowing, I can't believe it!
Final exams have also begun & this year I'm so happy! I really needed something to keep me busy…

You know, It'd been a while that I was thinking of writing this post; a kind of ending post for a weblog that although never became exactly like what I wanted, but was like the only safe place for my mind…
Many things were unsaid & will be forever. But that doesn't matter; I believe that there are things that are better to be kept in secret notebooks forever. Nobody else in the world can understand them…

Through this time since I started writing this weblog, many things have changed; the society of Iranian weblogs, number of English weblogs written by Iranians, the way that I write & think & more than all the others ; myself…
But somehow I feel like this weblog isn't on the way of its purposes anymore & recently I can't find the motivation that used to make me write before.
One of the reasons that I started to write was the lack of English information provided by Iranians through weblogs, but now things aren't like that time anymore.
Anyway, it all was like a great experience, going through all personal, political & social events through this webpage with words & posts…and finding so many friends & realizing that there are others who think & care about you.
Ok, that's all for now…although it's a bit hard to say; but…goodbye.

"...And now the former dictator of Iraq will face the justice he denied to millions."
I just love this sentence that President Bush said on the capture of Saddam Hussein. It must be a beautiful scene, when a dictator faces democracy...
Anyways, I believe that Saddam was finished just when he became a dictator; & his capture in such a shameful way can just be a motivation for Iraqis, & a lesson of history for other dictatorial regimes in the world, especially neighbors! But it seems that they are too blind to see anything around them…

Iran cleric's Web site gives behind the scenes view
"TEHRAN (Reuters) - Armed with a sharp wit and a concealed camera Iran's Vice President Mohammad Ali Abtahi is offering Internet users a daily behind-the-scenes peek into the corridors of power in Iran.
Abtahi, a mid-ranking cleric and one of President Mohammad Khatami's most trusted aides, started his own Web site (www.webnevesht.com) last month featuring amusing anecdotes and pictures from top level meetings in the Islamic Republic...."

Yesterday morning just as I came out it started to snow. That was a first heavy fall of snow in this year & one of the most beautiful snows that I've ever seen. You know, it's somehow unusual to see snow on this time of year in Tehran & the snow came a bit early this year…
At the time, the whole ground & all the trees & cars are covered by snow...And I'm looking to the alley through my favorite window (the window of my cousin's room!), enjoying this nice show of the sky & the children playing joyfully in the snow.

Stop Censoring Us!
A new weblog with the goal of providing official and unofficial news about Internet censorship in Iran & ...

A Nobel Prize & many questions…
It's funny how they shape your thoughts. At first, you become surprised by a big event that seems to be great for you & a nation; & after a while it seems like that entire honor was fake & unreal.
And at last It's you, that even don't know if you've been misused or not, & can't recognize right & wrong…That's all like a big riddle.

After winning that Nobel Prize by Shirin Ebadi & her arrive in Iran, different things were said about her & the prize.
a number of people believe that Shirin Ebadi wasn't suitable choice for this prize, & some believe that she was , but the situation made her change & didn't let her do what she has to. Some seriously opposed her speeches about Islam, Reform in Islamic regime & recently about voting & not boycotting the election; but some others also believed that she did & said it all just to follow her specific strategy, and we should try to understand her situation & conditions instead of just condemning what she does…
So, that IS like a riddle, isn't that?

Anyway, she has arrived in Oslo & will officially receive her Prize on Wednesday;
And after all, the positive point is that scarf that doesn't exist covering her head showing a woman's weakness & the rules that take her freedom.
So if I can't be certain about her intentions & purposes; but at least I can be proud of the way she appears as the symbol of Iranian women; the way they want to be, not the way they are.

Another wave of filtering, censorship & opposing against Persian weblogs...
At the time, there is no access to the most important politic websites or famous weblogs; by many popular ISPs. And it's a pity that all of anonymously web surfing websites are also filtered.
You know, recently they are trying a new way in reacting to weblogs. They are trying to make a society for weblogs & somehow organize them; as they say.
Organizing weblogs!!! Oh, that's really funny, it seems like they know nothing about weblogs & the fact that they can never be organized by any societies. It's clear that their inability to control weblogs, still bothers them & they do anything to somehow find a way to avoid people write anything they want without even inspection.
As I read somewhere, a number of Persian bloggers has named this fake society, The Trojan among weblogs and are seriously trying to oppose these kinds of foolish actions; & are also looking forward to make petitions in order to show their dissatisfaction.
Anyways, it seems that during this time, these simple web pages, written by ordinary people, have seized much power & become a big concern for government…

Iran demands to be an observer in the Arab League
"The spokesman for the Iranian foreign ministry, Hameed Rida Asifi, said yesterday that Iran asked the Arab League to give it the status of an observer in the Arab League.
The Iranian papers quoted Asifi as saying that the director of the foreign ministry affairs for the Middle East and North Africa, Muhammad Ali Sabahani, "submitted this request so as to have Iran an observer in the AL during his meeting with the secretary general of the Arab League ( Amr Moussa) on November 13, and we are waiting for the answer."..."

The weather is lovely; it's raining & as it seems soon there will also be a bit snowing. So it's a great time for writing!
You know, the reason of my irregular writing isn't only laziness, but the problems of my PC that are really making me mad…
These days most of Iranian satellite channels are talking about Khalkhali, the mullah who died a few days ago. Different people spend hours reminiscing about the first years after the fucking Islamic revolution & their memories of his murders & violence.
You know, he was one of the biggest killers of this regime; & although spent the last years of his life with different diseases but nothing can take vengeance on him but death!
Although my age doesn't let me feel that hate directly, but none of the ones who have seen those days can't hide their sense & can't pretend that his death was an unpleasant event because that really has been one of the most pleasant things that has happened through these years. And everyone seems to be satisfied…I don't have an idea what we can wish for a man, that his death makes everyone happy!

Nuclear watchdog group warns Iran
"(CNN) -- The U.N. nuclear watchdog's governing board Wednesday approved a resolution condemning Iran's secret nuclear program, and sending what the agency's chief calls a "serious and ominous message" to Iran that future breaches "will not be tolerated....."

End of Ramadan…
At the time there is a big dilemma among Iranian mullahs about the end of Ramadan & the day that must be marked as Fetr.
It's always been very funny to me, the way that they do so much foolish things about this day & the fact the last decision must be made by the supreme leader himself not anybody else.
And you know, the end of Ramadan month is very important for Moslems, because if it's still Ramadan they must fast & if not, fasting is a big sin!!!
But anyways, there is a big problem & that's the different ideas of different mullahs about today, if it is the last day of Ramadan or not.
Khameneii hasn't yet announced that, but some other mullahs seriously believe that today is the day.
That's interesting that today in all the countries in neighborhood people are celebrating this day as the end of Ramadan, except us!
All in all, lots of people don't even give a damn & also many other do; but the thing is that this year, this religious matters, has made some struggles that seem more political. The holiness that this regime has made for the supreme leader & the fact that every little thing is in his control, is losing its importance. We see more speeches, letters, & critical notes & acts against this hated leader & all those dictatorial rules of his power…

It's the first day of the last month of fall; & also the first day of the last week of Ramadan month...
It's pretty cold here, both the weather & also these passing seconds...you know, it's somehow my favorite time of year, but things could be nicer if these cold & moonlit nights were also a bit cloudy & rainy...

So, Ramadan with all those hateful religious programs is going to be finished soon. But that still isn't certain if Tuesday or Wednesday would be the last day of Ramadan that is a kind of celebration for Muslims;
I wish it to be on Wednesday, so then we'll have a three day holiday....you know, High school's more intolerable that any other time & any chance to escape from those nasty hours seems sweet, even if that is a religious holiday...

...And, at the time the most important topics inside Iran is the coming election & Iranians seem to be in a big dilemma. The regime's future is more than ever depended on people's reaction; & different politicians with different ideas make it much harder for people it make their decision...

...Oh, it's been about two weeks that I haven't posted anything...You know, the main problem was with my pc that needed to be repaired; there was no other special reason.
You know, I feel that somehow I have completely lost my addiction to the Internet, as in these two weeks I didn't even have a sense of loss!!!
Anyways, now I'm back; there are lots of things to write about & I will…

Iran’s Judiciary Continues to Hold Iranian-American Professor Dariush Zahedi
"It is over four months now since Dariush Zahedi was arrested in Tehran. Zahedi is an Iranian-American political science professor who teaches at University of California in Berkeley. He had traveled to Iran in June to spend time with his family, as he had done in the past few years....."

"Flag burning" marks Iran-US hostage anniversary
"....On November 4, 1979, in the wake of Iran's Islamic revolutions, a group of Islamist students stormed the US embassy in Tehran and held its staff hostage there for 444 days. The crisis led to the suspension of diplomatic ties between Washington and Tehran...."
Here are also some Photos of this rally...

Today was Aban’s 13, the 24th anniversary of the seizure of the U.S. Embassy that is called Students day!
So like other years, there was a rally & doing childish things like burning USA flag & symbols & chanting foolishly.
The protesters passed the street that is near our school, & as I saw there were comparatively a small number of people & most of them were school boys who were forced to go; they didn’t give a damn to the demonstration & were just laughing & having fun!
Actually, although that event in 1979 was meant to be an action against Imperialism, but changed to a support for a dictator & criminal regime.
You know; the repetition of History sometimes seems really frightening!
For sure nowadays students are mush different from the ones in 1997 & have other ideas about what happened those days. But What if in future, students find nowadays students’ movements foolish & again get in to more trouble!

Praying mantis on the president Khatami's turban!!!
Huh...that really was a photo opportunity! And the picture was also taken artistic. But for sure that mantis didn't choose a good place to sit & won't have a nice future; President's guards know what to do with such a rude insect!!!
Anyways, yesterday was Khatami’s birthday & it was said that he had planned to chat with youngsters!!! But that was just a rumor & the truth is that he has promised to chat with people one day, but hasn't said particular time & nobody knows the details! (Here’s the source in Farsi)...I think that would be an interesting situation!

U.N. Still Assessing Iran's Report
"UNITED NATIONS — U.N. nuclear watchdog chief Mohamed ElBaradei said Friday that it would take him at least two weeks to determine whether Iran had complied with his demand to prove that it had no nuclear weapons program.
"Sometime toward the end of the second week of November, I will be issuing a report," he said.

He did not think the International Atomic Energy Agency would be finished with the issue at that time, but said he hoped for substantial progress by then...."

One year...!
It’s very cold & the sky’s full of clouds but it doesn’t rain! That makes me nervous…
You know, it’s been exactly one year since the day I wrote the first post of this weblog...so it's a birthday!
I should think more; I should think of the purposes I had at the first & the ones I have now. I should think more of what has happened through this year & what I'm doing at the time...
It's been one year & I've grown up one year older here, in these pages...It's me among these words & lines & posts that reflect what has been on my mind.

...some things also changed & didn't go on as I wanted; after a while it wasn't that safe & secret place anymore. They follow you everywhere & never leave you alone; those strangers who look like your friends.
Anyways, I can't deny that writing here learnt & gave me valuable things …& now I’ll keep on writing till I lose my motivations, but still I don’t feel like giving up…

"…Till the roof comes off, till the lights go out,
Till my legs give out, can't shut my mouth
Till the smoke clears out and my high burns out,
I'ma rip this shit till my bones collapse…"

Raining, Ramadan, Islam & their teachings...!!!
…It’s been raining hard today. It’s not raining at the time but dark clouds still can be seen & sound of thunders can be heard…

Today is the first day of Ramadan month. Of course you know about this religious month that Muslims are supposed to go on a fast.
One of the advantages of this month is that we can come home from school one hour sooner; and one of the disadvantages is that you’re not allowed to eat in Public!

Many years ago, when I was a child I really loved Ramadan month & fasting; & used to have great enthusiasm for these kinds of thing. But now feel just sick of anything related to any religion! I know that those days I was just influenced by their hard Islamic teachings. They have always filled children’s minds with rotten religions beliefs & tried to make some hard-line Islamic fighters, but in the end everything changes against them. Humans have the ability of thinking, & I believe that’s enough not to let people always get fooled by religions.
Actually it’s like Islam against Islam by these paradoxical actions & beliefs in this religion & especially in the way they try to use it in the society.

You know, that Islamic teachings that I talked about are still continuing in schools, but now nobody gives a damn to what they say & just tolerate the classes to get the mark & pass the course
Believe me that In the Koran & religious beliefs classes all of the students are napping or talking with each other or doing something else, & no one even listen to all those boring things that are just repeated each year by books that are full of lies & reliable teachers.
Even if you ask the teacher a question she talks about an hour & gives a hundred examples that have nothing to do with what you asked. At last she can’t say a right word in the answer of that question & can’t persuade anyone. Actually that’s their usual way, they preach for hours & fill your mind with confusing things but never give you a logic reason to prove what they say & you just have to assume that Islam is the best & guides you to the best way…

- Iranians still enriching uranium... "Iran has yet to suspend the enrichment of uranium, as it agreed to do last week in talks on its nuclear programme...."

- A woman of action & Ayatollah Ebadi?... two notes about Shirin Ebadi on The Iranian

- Here is also the weblog of an Italian friend, Eiris that I wish her good luck in her exam...